4th of July Fireworks

Your first time…the first sex you ever experience…the pinnacle of your existence to that point…at least for a man.  Most men remember their first time with fondness and pride:  His partner was a beautiful cheerleader or homecoming queen and, even though it was his first time, he was able to go all day and gave her 15 orgasms.

Most women have less than pleasant memories of their first time:  Usually the guy was drunk and blew his load in about five seconds.  And, on top of that, it hurt!

My first time memories are somewhere in the middle.

It was the summer of 1978.  I was in at the end of my first year of college.
Actually, I was in my first summer semester.  Being this was my first time
away from home for a long period of time, in a new town, meeting new people,
I had not paid as much attention to my studies as I should have.  This
necessitated repeating an Economics class that was considered one of my core
classes.  I had to pass it before I could move on to upper division studies.

One of the distractions from my studies was Tina.  I met her through a
friend during a freshman mixer in the fall, but we didn’t go out for the
first time til the spring.  Tina was an attractive strawberry blond who was
a little pudgy but carried it well.  She was happy and bubbly, and a lot of
fun in a crowd of friends.  And since she was from the town where the
college was located, she was always available to date.  Another of her
attributes was she was a great, GREAT kisser.  I had made out with girls
before, but never a real woman like Tina.  Her tongue would not just dart in
and out of my mouth, but it would explore;  running along my gum line and on
the insides of my lips!  The sensations this caused would send tingles down
to my crotch and my cock would begin to stir.  Tina and I spent many an
hour, locked in a death grip of passion on my dorm room couch.

There was just one problem: Tina couldn’t stop talking!  We’d be on a date,
or in a store, or at a movie, or anywhere…Tina kept talking, no matter
what.  Sometimes she would talk about important matters of the day.  But
most of the time it was just constant babbling about pets or clothes or
friends or something else I didn’t give a fat rats ass about.  Her
chattering was, at best annoying. At worst, it ground on my last nerve till
I thought I would wrap my fingers around her neck and squeeze the life (and
words) right out of her.

And the very, VERY worst was on the phone.  Hours and hours of deep,
meaningful discussions like “Whatcha doin?”  “Nothing, what are you doing?”
“Nothing.”  There were even times where I fell asleep on the phone, only to
be awakened by her yelling at me through the receiver, asking if I was alright.

I was a virgin, but I couldn’t put up with all the blathering on about
inconsequential matters.  Besides, I wanted my first to be with someone
special. Tina simply wasn’t the one.  My hormones told me she was good
enough, but my heart said it would be better to break it off.

I worked at a local grocery store for spending money and to help pay for
books. On a hot Fourth of July, I had put in 10 hours unloading a truck and
stocking shelves, along with bagging groceries and gathering shopping carts.
I was hot, dirty, tired and cranky.  So when the phone rang and it was Tina
on the other end, I told her it was over and I would be over later to drop
off her few belongs that she had at my dorm and to pick up my spare key I
gave her in the event of an emergency.  I intentionally kept the
conversation short to avoid a two hour discussion of why I was dumping her.
When I hung up, I felt a little bad for being so short with Tina, but I
shrugged it off and got in the shower.

The shower felt good as it pounded the dirt, grime and sweat off my body.  I
had a radio on in the bathroom and had it cranked up loud on a local rock
station.  My roommate had gone home for the summer, and few students were in
my building, so I didn’t worry about disturbing anyone.  I just let the
tepid water run over me even after I had rinsed off all the soap.  I was
tense from my conversation with Tina and sore from a hard day’s work.  My
mind wandered to a letter I had read in an adult magazine I had stashed
under my mattress.  Something about a couple on a trip to a tropical island
where they had made love in the grass beside a clear pond fed by a small
waterfall.  The image of their tanned bodies wrapped around one another,
licking, sucking, pinching, squeezing and fucking one another had made a
powerful impression on me.  As I remembered the scene, my dick began to
harden.  I shut off the water and began to towel myself dry.  The action of
drying my crotch, only seemed to make my cock harden even more.  I finished
drying my body and put the towel over my head and began vigorously working
the water from my hair. I walked from the bathroom, into the dorm to grab my
hairbrush, when I heard a voice.

“You look happy to see me.”

“SHIT!”  I yelled and yanked the towel off my head and wrapped it awkwardly
around my waist.

Tina was lying in my bed with the covers pulled up around her neck.

In a loud, angry voice I asked, “What the FUCK do you think you’re doing
here?  I thought I made it clear, we are through!”

“I was hoping I could change your mind.”

Her voice was a low, growly sound that wrapped around my cock and massaged
it back to a half hardness.  The surprise of her being there, and the fact
she had never seen me naked, had caused my little warrior to retreat.  But
the advance was on again.

“I don’t think there’s anything you could say that would make me want you back.”

It was true.  I was not interested in a long term relationship with Tina and
my mind was made up.

“I wasn’t going to say a word.”

And with that, she pulled back the covers to reveal her naked body.

There was a naked woman in my bed that wanted me to make love to her.  I had
an erection that was so hard, it hurt.  My mind said this was a bad idea.
But I turned my mind off for a while and thought with my cock.

While Tina was no men’s magazine model, she looked beautiful to me.  She was
short, only five feet, one inch, but her body was perfectly proportioned to
her height.  Her legs were a little on the chunky side, but nicely shaped
with strong looking calves and thighs.  Her hips looked a little wide in
some of her clothes, but that was an illusion because Tina appeared to have
a perfect hourglass figure as she lay naked in my bed.  Her pussy hair was
somewhat darker than the hair on her head, but it was neatly trimmed and
didn’t spill over into the crease where Tina’s hip and thigh joined
together.  She had a little baby fat around her middle but Tina was nowhere
near fat.  And her tits…her beautiful, round tits…about the size of a
baseball, firm and proud, with dark pink nipples.  Tina’s breast were
accentuated by her tan line.  The slightly lighter colored flesh caused by
her bikini seemed to make her breasts that much more prominent.  I wanted to
taste her body from head to toe.

My mouth was dry, my breathing rapid, my eyes as big as saucers trying to
take in her body.  I walked over to the bed, staring at Tina’s body and
trying to process what was about to happen.

“You know this is my first time.  I’m afraid I won’t be able to make you happy.”

“Don’t worry,” she said.  “This isn’t my first time and I know I can make us
both happy.”

As I got to the edge of the bed, Tina quickly stood up right in front of me.
She wrapped her arms around me, pressing her sweet body against mine.  I
could feel her tits mashing against my chest and my hard cock poking her in
the stomach.  Tina looked up at me and I lowered my head and kissed her.  A
sweet, gentle kiss.  Our lips barely touching, yet the sensations raced
through me like I’d been hit by a speeding truck.

I grabbed Tina and kissed her hard.  My hands grabbing her ass and squeezing
her round cheeks.  My tongue drilled it’s way to the back of her throat.  I
was out of control and wanted to devour her right that second!

Tina pushed me back and told me to slow down.  I took a couple of deep
breathes and tried to regain my composure.  Tina was right, I needed to slow
down.  I wanted to enjoy this experience and make it last as long as possible.

We laid down on the bed and began rubbing each others bodies with our hands.
Tina was gentle and deliberate.  I would get in a hurry, but a guiding touch
by Tina’s hands would reign me in.

We began kissing again.  This time, I was able to remain calm and enjoy
Tina’s gift of French kissing.  She seemed to be doing new things with her
tongue that made my heart race even more!

My hands moved along her back and down to her sweet ass, squeezing the warm
flesh, but more gently than before.  Tina moaned as one hand reached around,
under her ass, and ran a finger over the lower part of her pussy lips.  The
sensation of touching her where I had never been before was as exciting for
me as it seemed to be for her.

Despite the fact we were naked, rolling around on my bed, locked in a
passionate embrace, I felt a little odd about touching Tina’s breasts.  I
wanted to, very badly, but I still felt like I would be somehow violating
her.  I decided that this was a silly line of thought and moved my hand from
her ass to her tits.  I wrapped my hand around her firm breast and felt a
sharp intake of air as we continued kissing.

“Oh yes!” I heard Tina say as I gently squeezed her tit.  I kissed my way
down Tina’s neck and gave her a little love bite.  She seemed to find that
quite enjoyable and I did it again.  Next, I sucked a little of her neck in
my mouth and gently brought my teeth together, letting the lump of flesh
slide over my teeth.  Tina shuddered and moaned deeply during this maneuver.
I continued to kiss and nibble my way down her chest, til I was at her
nipples.  I gazed at them for a moment.  Their hard, dark pink nipples were
standing erect.  I gave one of Tina’s pencil-eraser nipples a little lick
and she squealed slightly.

“Tell me if I do anything you don’t like.”

I continued to lick at Tina’s nipples, each time, putting more and more of
my tongue on her nipple and the surrounding breast.  Finally, I tried to
suck her whole tit into my mouth.   But I guess I tried too hard and
scrapped her boob on my teeth.

“OUCH!” Tina squeaked.  “Not so hard!  Relax, calm down.   You don’t have to
do everything to the max!  Just do a little at a time and we’ll both have
fun.  OK?”

“Sorry.  I’m just a little nervous.  I’ve never made love before.   Teach me
what feels good to you.”

I wanted to do a good job and please her.  Tina knew what she was doing and
what she wanted me to do.

“Lie back, and just relax.”

I laid down on my back and folded my arms behind my head.  Tina kissed me on
the mouth, gently, then began to slowly work her way down my body.  She
paused at certain points along the way; my nipples, belly button, the crease
along my waist line just above my pubic area.  I was in heaven.  Then Tina
positioned herself between my legs.  My heart raced as I realized what she
was about to do. I had never had a blowjob before and I knew my first was
only seconds away.  Tina wrapped her hand around my cock and licked the
underside from midway up my shaft to the head.  I moaned as her tongue
grazed the “V” shaped area just under my cock head.  That place is the most
sensitive part of my cock and Tina knew it. She worked that part of my cock
with her tongue and lips for several seconds before engulfing the head in
one quick move.  I gasped and my hips shot upwards by reflex from the
sensations of this action.  Tina rode the movement and held on like she
expected it to happen.  I wondered how many cocks she had sucked, but that
flash of jealousy quickly disappeared as Tina worked her mouth up and down
my shaft.  Her hot mouth and talented tongue were working their magic on my
prick and I wasn’t sure how long I could stand it before my jizzbomb went off.

“Damn, that’s good baby!” I said and immediately regretted it.

It sounded like basic porno movie dialog, and I didn’t want to cheapen this
experience by lowering it to the lever of an adult bookstore loop.

Then I thought, “I didn’t plan to say that, it just popped out of my mouth.
That’s probably what I would have said even if I never had seen a porno
movie.  Just relax and go with it.”

After that, I didn’t care what I said.  I told Tina I didn’t think that I
could hold back much long and she took my cock out of her mouth and started
sucking and licking my balls.  It felt great, but didn’t have the intensity
of a blowjob, so I wasn’t as likely to pop my nut.

Tina looked up from between my legs and said, “Now it’s up to you to return
the favor.”

She moved to the head of the bed and laid on her back, legs spread.  I knew
she wanted me to eat her snatch, but I wasn’t sure what to do.  I had read
about it in porno mags and seen it in adult movies, but that was a lot
different than actually being face to snatch with a real live woman.  Tina
could see the doubt on my face.

“I’ll guide you through it.  Just do what I tell you.”

So I positioned myself between Tina’s legs and lowered my face into her box.
I could smell the heat rising from her crotch and that certain scent of a
woman.  I wanted to plunge my face and tongue between her lips and start
sucking and nibbling like a starving man at an all-you-can-eat buffet.  But
I knew Tina would tell me the best way to please her.

“Use your fingers to spread my lips.  That’s right.  See that little round
nub at the top of my lips?  That’s my clitoris, or clit as men like to call
it.  You need to be careful not to be too rough with my clit, but I do want
you to lick and suck it gently.  I also like to feel your tongue down in my
hole and to suck my lips.  Again, be careful.  No teeth.  Alright, go ahead.”

I took a few tentative licks around her clit.  I knew enough from what I
read to not go straight at the clit.  But to lick the areas around it first.
Tina seemed to enjoy this indirect approach.  She moaned grabbed my hair and
seemed to be directing the movements of my mouth.  I quickly became more
comfortable with lapping at her fuckhole and soon was jamming my tongue deep
into Tina’s pussy.  Tina moaned and squealed and shuddered as I brought her
to her first orgasm of the evening with my tongue and a middle-finger buried
in her quim.

After she came down from her cum, Tina reached over for a damp wash cloth
and told me to wipe my face clean.  After I did that, she grabbed me around
the neck and kissed me hard and deep.

“On your back,” said Tina in a low, gutteral voice that told me I had better
do what she said.

Tina was soon poised over me, hovering above my hardon.  I helped steady her
as she lowered her soaking pussy over my achingly hard pole.  As Tina’s
pussy slid over my cock, I thought I would blow my load instantly.  The
sensation of her hot, wet snatch molding around my dick was so intense, I
nearly passed out.  Tina sat her full weight on my cock and then didn’t
move.  She knew I was enjoying this for the first time and didn’t want to
take the chance on me having no control.  I could feel her pussy muscles
contracting and releasing as she sat there.  I reached up and took her
beautiful tits in my hands.  My thumb and index finger applying gentle
pressure to her nipples, giving them a delicate twist, caused Tina to rock
back slightly and let loose a soft moan.  Tina then began to slide front to
back, my cock slipping and sliding through the combination of my spit and
her pussy juice.  I held on to those magnificent tits as her sliding hump
began to build in speed and intensity.  In a few minutes I was squeezing
Tina’s nipples and tits hard, but she didn’t seem to notice as she was
fucking herself on my cock.  Quick gasps of breath signaled another orgasm
for Tina and once the waves of intense sensation had passed, she laid down
on top of me, breathing hard and sweating slightly.

“Did you cum yet?” she asked and I told her “no.”

She seemed surprised.  So was I.  But something was tickling at the back of
my mind that kept me from letting go.

“I don’t want to get you pregnant,” I told her.

She smiled and said, “I’m on the pill, silly!  You don’t think I’m going to
take a chance and get knocked up, do you?  Let yourself go, it’s ok!”

With that, she rolled off of me and laid on her back, legs spread, with a
“Fuck me good” look on her face.

I got between her legs and put her feet up on my shoulders (saw that in a
porno movie).  I began to plow my hard, aching meat into her juicy snatch.
The wet smack of our hips coming together filled the small dorm room along
with Tina’s moans and my grunts.

Something else I had seen in a porno came to mind and I wanted to try it.

“Let’s do it doggy style.”

An “Mmmm” escaped Tina’s lips as I made my request.  We got in position and
I fed my cock into her pussy.  This was a completely different sensation to
what we had done before.  It was more intense, more centered on my cockhead
and the sensitive area just under the head.  It was too much for me to
handle!  I was transformed into a fucking animal! I pounded Tina’s snatch as
hard as I could.  The harder I fucked her, the more I wanted to fuck her
harder!  Tina said I was wailing like a crazed banshee the whole time, but I
can’t remember it at all.  All I do remember was the pressure building in my
groin, the unstoppable release of my cum and the total collapse or all
bodily control.  I hammered Tina’s pussy as I came and then fell with my
full weight on top of her, my fuck meat shrinking and exiting her well worn
cunt with a slight pop.

As I began to regain consciousness, I realized what had happened:  I had just
experienced sex for the first time with someone that I didn’t like all that
much.  My desire had gotten the better of my mind.  It hadn’t been the first
time and wasn’t the last.  But, I had given in to my most carnal desire and
didn’t consider the consequences.

Tina went to the bathroom and cleaned up.  I wiped off my slimy dick with
the washcloth and tried to decide what my next move should be.

As she came out of the bathroom, I said, “Tina, I guess this changes things
between us.”

“No,” came her response, “this doesn’t change a thing.  You’re right, we
just don’t work together.”  And she started to get dressed.

I was slack-jawed at her comments.

“It’s better this way.  I thought I could make you want me if I made love to
you, but I can tell, you don’t.  I’m sorry if you feel used, but you have to
admit, we had a pretty good time.”

I agreed and told her if she needed a friend, that I would be right
here…at least for the next three years.  She smiled and kissed me on the
cheek and left my dorm room…and my life.

I look back on my first time and feel lucky that Tina wanted me that much.
At the same time, I feel a little guilty that I didn’t want her enough to
make it work…only enough to make her my first.