What Will Allowing Trust, Love and Appreciate Do Over Time?

Again as I sit here ready to write this, having examined myself and my surrounding which then leads me to this new abundant way of thinking, but it also has come up in me by reading many of my past entries here on this blog. Many of these things that I’ve written to you have continued to pursue forward in my life. So much so I know the power of written word, the spoken word and the like. But it shouldn’t be of any real amazement to me, because I’ve been taught this power long ago by amazing mentors and yet, here I am, in wonderment of my situation, yet again, with tears of joy in my eyes.

I am so happy and grateful now that I realize my power and that the world that I live in is beckoning for my will and it’s SAFE to do so. With no gripes or complaints, it’s all here, I ask and it’s given. At this point I still live in Hakata in Fukuoka, Japan with my girlfriend Leti, but now the amazing friends that we’ve made here have pushed me further and further, finding the perfect business associates, perfect loving friends, perfect loving romantic relationships and from here I feel I’m looking down from a mountain such as Chomolungma seeing the epic journey that was started so many many years ago with a thought, a desire, a feeling.

I find myself to be so attuned with Japanese life and the Japanese that it’s becoming odd to me. I’ve traveled the world putting on rave events since I was in my early 20’s, so many years I’d be out of the country, traveling, moving to new areas… everything so new all the time. But here I am still, in Hakata with my girlfriend, with my new romances, with my new friends still going to school to continue studying Japanese. I’m finding that Japan is now becoming more and more comfortable, so much so, I sat here for awhile and realized, that, Japan IS my home now. I’ve never felt like I’ve had a solid home, not like this. When I was a early year teenager I was always moving, never becoming familiar with anything, just floating, floating, floating.

Now I’m making friends, real friends, friends that are such on a deep level of trust and love with me that I couldn’t have asked for a better attraction of love and friendship. Yet, perhaps I didn’t ask through my words perse, perhaps I asked through my love and appreciation of the life I’m living, THE FEELINGS that I’ve learned to harness and to focus into new and amazing entities of power. Since I’ve been in Japan and meeting my new friends, I ran into a wonderful young social marketing expert when I arrived, not only that she is a market research expert and she has made the difference for my girlfriend and I to finally REALLY grasp understanding Ecommerce on a level I didn’t think I would have ever understood. Last time I really noted to my monthly income it was a little above $1 million dollars a month in a gross income, since then it’s more than tripled. My income that I get to keep and stash in the bank for whatever I want AFTER taxes is now just a bit shy of $1 million USD per month. Again, it’s not like I continue to do what I’m doing because I NEED money, I do it for the challenge, I do it for the good will, I do it for the love and the appreciate of KNOWING that anything is in grasp.

I’ve been able to stay in Japan up until about 6 months ago purely on the amounts of cash I can throw at lawyers here in Japan. But since I live in Fukuoka where it’s the only city/prefecture in Japan that offers a “Start Up” Visa, I was able to procure the 6 month Visa despite that I didn’t NEED it, I only needed the time. Our new market researcher Lila is so amazing that we’ve been able to drive new business and products to and from Fukuoka, Japan.

But what I find amazing and what I love about this wondrous and mystical land is that I can leave at 2am in the morning to a konbini (Convenience store) and actually buy food and whatever I want that’s 1000% safer then even eating organic food in America. It’s crazy. But while I was walking to the konbini tonight, I didn’t ride my bike, I walked, something I’ve not done in awhile. I enjoyed the spectacle of snow bouncing through the glowing lights of the city. Fukuoka rarely really gets much snow, but lately it’s been cold enough to really see it layer a tiny bit of the walk way, but I loved it! The wind picked up and threw my hair about as if I was in an anime, which made me feel like I am truly a Japanese citizen now! Perhaps that seems weird, that I as walked down the road, witness the regular sights and sounds of Japan that I would feel this way and it would be cemented.

The taxi cab driver resting on the side of his cab near a park, smoking a cigarette, the woman covered from head to toe riding her bike down the road besides me as the shinkasen passed by to the right slowly moving to it’s final destination of Hakata Eki, the gusts and howling of the wind pushing gently against me as cold shards of snow hit my eye lids. I’m so grateful to be here and stay and in a way find my true home amongst people, a place I never thought I would find as home to a introverted individual such as myself when I was a child.

By being here I’ve discovered that my love and appreciation for my friends, my family the people around me has and continues to grow… people I know and people I don’t are in my heart in such a profound way that it’s hard to describe, it’s a journey to get here, every time I feel at the top of my game I continue to get higher and higher. I accept the challenges moving forward, my goals now are to generate over $10 million in commerce each month in the next 18 months. Watch this space because I’m going to do it.

If you have dreams and goals write about them! Do everything you can to FEEL these emotions of love and appreciation and love the people around you despite the dark moments, these moments are tests from yourself, pass them… people will seem to test you for your love, pass them… because they are YOUR tests, your family or past friends may help you or not, but love them and TRUST that whatever is to come it is YOUR tests, it is YOUR will that is coming through.

The shit we live in is because we didn’t trust ourselves… with ourselves. We didn’t trust, we didn’t believe in our goals strong enough, we didn’t appreciate and love those around us strong enough. You can forgive and not need to be in peoples life that abuse you, but the hate and lack of trust is what will keep us down in the dirt. I moved out of my comfort zone and it took me a LONG time, but here I am… living what many people would call a King or Queens DREAM life, and I would say, you’re right, but at this people I feel more connected to everyone else around me at all times, I do not feel as if my income has peeled my away from my humanity, in fact it has increased my love in humanity and my sympathy and trust and love in all those I walk with… If I ride the train, I ride it as regular human being, except I know things beyond the scope of how most people live, by my own desire at this point is seeing and knowing ALL of them CAN HAVE WHATEVER THEY WANT! I see them capable and I celebrate their successes if I happen to hear it in passing, or see an expression of romantic love pass a young or older woman’s face, or the the feeling that exudes from a young man heart having accomplished something great, or better yet, fallen in love and his trust in the future is so bright, so wonderful that it brightens every bodies day in which he passes if they realized it or not. These are the wonders of the world in which we live, ourselves, our time now, this space.

TRUST & LOVE but Bring Your Courage!

My mentors recently have really dug deep with me and exposed more interesting information about the world in yet we live and this world we live in is SOOO amazing it would make most people reading this not believe it and try to debunk it. But to come down to the truth of this: I asked when I was a child to KNOW the truth about the land we live, the reality, the matrix if you will… I’ve gotten that, I’m living in MY dream land of Japan, I have my own business that’s extremely successful with my loves, enjoying an amazing intimate relationship with them that I’ve never experienced ever before, I am very close to being fluent in Japanese JLPT – N2 and I now feel like I have a home and I love how I gain new close friendships CONSTANTLY being here in Japan. On top of all this more and more layers of truth continue to show themselves to me and with every passing layer of trust and truth my life gets bright and more exciting.

An amazing life requires being able to see past your shit… but still love and no matter what ALWAYS come back to loving, trusting and having a goal for your life and those around you. YOU are the leader of your life despite whose in front of the pack, you are responsible for the success of everyone in your clan, be it happiness, love/romance, money or the like, continue to discover ways to love, appreciate and FEEL the absolute best you can. I’m living proof that working through the dark years of life YOU WILL come out on the other side better then you could ever have without the trust, love and the WILL power of your dream and goals.

-Elli Sanders

To my loves of now and yonder.